It is one of those days, where I am lying in bed, wondering what to dream of today. Those days when you are just waiting to fall asleep. We have all been there, the place, where you try hard enough to set aside your true self and try to become someone the world is more accepting of. Sooner or later, the bubble bursts, and in the silence of the night, when there is pin-drop silence around, the midnight chatter inside your brain begins.
What is the midnight chatter?
How often do you put on the worldly cloak and try to imitate the people around you? These people can be your siblings, your parents your friends and these days even the social media influencers. Looking at one aspect of their lives, we frame an entire picture of how lovely and wonderful it would be to become like them.
In today’s social media culture, it is more common to start behaving like an influencer and imitating their lives in order to hide away from our reality. This imitation game works well if you are trying to impress a girl or boy, want to get something from your family, or for any short term benefit. However, in the larger horizon, your true self will someday shatter the glass wall of imitation and bring forward the reality, that you are too afraid to face.
This shattering of simulation can only happen with your consent. The consent is known as the midnight chatter. While during the daytime, your inner voice is subdued by the louder noise from outside, the silence of the night is when you start to face yourself.
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.
Why imitate someone else?
While it is only recently that people have started to discuss the imitation game, this has been in our society since humankind first came to earth. In the past we have had great scientists and writers, who have tried to portrayed themselves as something else, very well hiding their true selves.
a. Darwin on Anxiety
Darwin though was a great person in history, but his mental habits too have not been hidden. From his stringent daily routine to his despairingly despondent moods to his obsessive list of the pros and cons of marriage.
In his book My Age of Anxiety: Fear, Hope, Dread, and the Search for Peace of Mind– his sweeping mental health memoir, Darwin explores our culture of anxiety and its costs.
During Darwin’s lifetime and beyond, various conflicting hypotheses attempted to diagnose him. However, a close reading of Darwin’s biography reveals that worry was the initiating element in every one of his most intense cases of the disease. His most powerful counter-argument to other medical ideas is a seemingly simple yet substantial piece of evidence.
With people being more vocal about mental health, depression is also one of the common issues, that leads to the imitation game. Our mind forces us to believe that living someone else’s life is a better choice, than facing our own. SO we suppress our feelings and let our surroundings take over us.
Sometimes one has simply to endure a period of depression for what it may hold of illumination if one can live through it, attentive to what it exposes or demands,
In this short video Bloom — a touching animated short film, drawn from the small personal gesture a universal metaphor for how we survive our densest private darknesses, consonant with Neil Gaiman’s insistence that “sometimes it only takes a stranger, in a dark place… to make us warm in the coldest season.”
Though the midnight chatter surely takes a toll on your sleep, it for sure brings to your mind the reality of life. It shows you the truth behind your day to day life and what else the world has to offer you.
If the universe is meaningless, so is the statement that it is so… The meaning and purpose of dancing is the dance
Deep sentiments, like great achievements, always imply more than they are conscious of stating… Great feelings bring with them their own universe, be it glorious or dreadful. They create an exclusive universe in which they recognise their climate by igniting it with their enthusiasm. Jealousy, ambition, selfishness, and generosity all exist in the cosmos. A world — or, to put it another way, a metaphysic and a mental attitude.
A man’s true instincts, as much as his make-believe, define him. As a result, there is a lower-key of sentiments that is inaccessible in the heart but partially revealed by the behaviours they suggest and the mental attitudes they adopt.